Holidays, Uncategorized

The Un-Valentine Day

admin / February 14, 2019
Anniversaries, Surviving

Hills and Valleys

admin / January 7, 2019

Today I celebrate the first anniversary of This Mama’s Heart. When I started last January, I wasn’t quite sure if anyone outside my family and close friends would be interested in my thoughts- the good, bad, and the ugly. But as it turns out, other people are interested and I am truly blessed to know I have touched hearts. I…

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Anniversaries, Becoming Restored

Home

admin / January 4, 2019

I thought I knew what I was going to write about. Three years ago today, TJ and I were being airlifted from Washington, D.C. to Philadelphia, from one Children’s Hospital to another. I thought I was going to tell you about all the hope I felt that day to be able to get back to our home hospital and meet…

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Holidays, Surviving

Christmas Past

admin / December 24, 2018

Christmas day is nearly upon us. It can feel quite surreal since Christmas is the start of the worst three weeks of my life.  On December 26th, 2015 the shit hit the fan and the bottom fell out of my world. I can hardly bring myself to write about it. Everything was going “well” (meaning as well as it could…

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Holidays

Music, Lights, and Nutcrackers, Oh My

admin / December 5, 2018

Driving to the home school co-op this morning I felt the holiday sadness creeping in. Like a wiggle worm- one part “get off me” and one part “don’t go away”- the emotions moved through my ears to my head, to my heart, and finally finding their escape route as tears that drenched my cheeks. It’s never easy knowing how to…

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Becoming Restored

Out of the Dust Springs Life

admin / November 21, 2018

Thanksgiving. It’s tomorrow. My co-worker called me this morning to ask if I’d be okay. “It is what it is,” I replied. “Yes, it is.” We ended our conversation with promises to talk tomorrow and I moseyed into the kitchen to tackle some cleaning. After all the dishes were cleaned I set my sights on dusting. I enlisted the help…

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Surviving

Inspiration?

admin / October 23, 2018

Inspire. To fill (someone) with the urge or ability to do or feel something, especially to do something creative. To create (a feeling, especially a positive one) in a person. To animate someone with (such a feeling). To give rise to. People look at me & say I am an inspiration. Why? What have I done? I have done nothing.…

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Uncategorized

Who I Always Was

admin / October 17, 2018

Mind. Blown. I had tied a bow on my last post and decided to do some further reading on the art of kintsugi. It’s the Japanese art of repairing pottery with silver and gold. On the website of My Modern Met  it tells the history of this beautiful technique. There it says: “The practice is related to the Japanese philosophy…

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Becoming Restored

The Art of Precious Scars

admin / October 12, 2018

I have been wanting to write for some time and haven’t. I don’t know exactly why I haven’t. I have these thoughts I want to get out but I’m always doing something and I say “later”. I have been plagued by guilt and unanswered questions- questions which will NEVER be answered. Questions only TJ could answer. So I turn to…

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Gifts

New Ink

admin / September 22, 2018

I’m not sure if it’s obvious from any of my pictures, but I have this special tattoo on my right shoulder. My daughter designed it in remembrance of TJ and it’s been with me for just over two years. The original idea (per my request) had song lyrics wrapping the perimeter of a crescent moon that holds a swing with…

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