Anniversaries, Changes, Holidays, Surviving

A Foreigner in This Land

admin / January 9, 2022

Have you ever been somewhere and felt so out of place that you felt like a foreigner? You had no idea where to go or how you’d get there if you did know. Have you ever been somewhere and felt like that even though you had been there dozens upon dozens of times? It is sort of like the opposite of deja vu. When you have deja vu there is a distinct feeling that you have seen something, been somewhere, met someone before. Even if you didn’t know WHY you felt that way there was a certainty that you knew “X”. Going back to the opposite, there’s a certainty that you know NOTHING. That is how I feel today. In terms of grieving that is.

Holidays, Surviving, Uncategorized

Mama’s Day

The day before the last Mother's Day with TJ.
Holidays, Uncategorized

The Un-Valentine Day

admin / February 14, 2019
Holidays, Surviving

Christmas Past

admin / December 24, 2018

Christmas day is nearly upon us. It can feel quite surreal since Christmas is the start of the worst three weeks of my life.  On December 26th, 2015 the shit hit the fan and the bottom fell out of my world. I can hardly bring myself to write about it. Everything was going “well” (meaning as well as it could…

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Holidays

Music, Lights, and Nutcrackers, Oh My

admin / December 5, 2018

Driving to the home school co-op this morning I felt the holiday sadness creeping in. Like a wiggle worm- one part “get off me” and one part “don’t go away”- the emotions moved through my ears to my head, to my heart, and finally finding their escape route as tears that drenched my cheeks. It’s never easy knowing how to…

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